I'm not a sharing kind of person. I don't open up to people, at least I didn't use to. It's hard to share to people about your inner demons. Mainly because they don't understand what it feels like. They realize that you're in pain, and the acknowledge the fact that you're hurting, but they can't do anything about it. They can't understand what goes through you're head, they don't realize why you feel a certain way because they have never gone through it. They don't have the demons telling them they aren't good enough, that don't share the same self-hate that use to be in you, they don't have the same experiences, so they'll never understand.
Sometimes I'm just in so much pain that I don't know what to do, so the only thing I have left to do is tell someone, and hope that they will say soemthing or do something that might help me in some type of way, but so far it's never happened.
I just wish I could find someone as fucked up as me so that way they can understand what does through my head, so they can understand