The Girl That's Fucked Up
Before High school I lost count of the amount of times that I ended up on the bathroom floor curled in a ball. And during high school it's only happened 7 times, and still counting. Earlier today makes 8, so 8 times and counting. Whether its me crying about a heartbreak or crying about the fact that I'm ugly (in my opinion), it's still been 8 times, but how much you wanna bet it's gonna be 10 times more by the end of this school year.
Typically when I have my sob fest in the bathroom its just me blasting music to the loudest it will go and me not even thinking. Me not even understanding why I'm actually crying. All I do is close my eyes and every painful thing that has happened slowly starts to come out. Tear by tear it starts to fade out of my head, clearing room far the rest of the fucked up things my head con-cocks on a daily basis.
However,this only works if the problem in my head is "treatable". What I mean by this is, this only works if it's something that doesn't effect my over-all mindset of myself. If it's not "treatable" then it will take a lot longer than one 30 minute session of pouring my eyes out to get rid of the problem.
To be completely honestly this was a horrible reference point. Crying in the bathroom has only happened 8 times because if I'm not in my room then it's the closest thing that's as private. I've cried in my room and myself to sleep more times in my life then I can even imagine. The bathroom is just the next best thing.
But so far I don't know the answer to this riveting question, but I really do wish I did.