The Girl That's Fucked Up
Mosquitoes repellant is used to ward away mosquitoes. Something most humans aren't found of. Sad to say, we don't have this for people we don't like,instead we simply just ignore them or tell them off and hope they get the message. Typically, people choose option A for me. I'm more of the type of person people just ignore and hope they take a hint. I've taken the hint a lot.
Whenever I talk to people, they like me, well at least I think they do. I don't know why but it seems like they do. However this isn't something that last for very long. From past experience we're good for about a week to two weeks and then they promptly cut all communication. I'm not the type of person that needs their friends to text and talk to them everyday, but I don't mind it. In the week or two that we are "friends" we talk everyday, all day. We talk about nonsense to what we would do if we were the last two people on earth. Now of course I don't do this with all my friends, it just happens with the new ones. I don't really mind it, I actually kind of like it. Makes me feel less alone.
Now I don't want to put down my current friends because they are a lot of who I am as a person and I don't know what I'd be without them, but it's not like I talk to them 24/7, I see them and talk to them whenever. And I don't expect them to talk to me all the time, that would be insane, but that doesn't take away from the times in which I don't have anyone to talk to and I feel lonely.
With these new friends, for some reason they like talking to me, it becomes almost a routine, even if we don't have shit to talk about, we still talk. But then, I guess they just get bored of me, and we stop talking every day, we just stop talking. That's how I know the difference between an acquaintance and a friend, because friends don't just leave.
My recent theory however shows that in between a week or two, I become annoying and lose any remnants of fun. I become the person that keeps texting you, the person that won't go away, so eventually I get it, I take a hint, and I stop. It's become a routine. How am I suppose to define what fun is if I'm not even a fun person. If I'm not even close to knowing what a good time is. I don't know how not to be "dry" and boring. I just become a nusciane, I become something that people don't want to be around.
Why am I so antisocial? Why don't I don't talk to people? It's not because I'm scared, but because I know it won't last. And I'm not one to waste my time.